This is a call to arms for all who recognize romance as. As a dying scene...

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 01:50:34 GMT

I created a new LiveJournal.
Add.
leavememylove

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 03:42:12 GMT

I wish I was weak enough to give up.

Lately..
I don't feel alive.

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 18:36:47 GMT

I wish I had a reason to sing this song...

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you love me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you pull me out of time
hung me on the line
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you

Maybe I'm a man,
Maybe I'm a lonely man who's in the middle of something
that he doesn't really understand

Maybe I'm a man
Maybe you're the only woman who can ever help me
baby, won't you help me to understand

Maybe I'm a man
Maybe I'm a lonely man who's in the middle of something
that he doesn't really understand

Maybe I'm a man
and maybe you're the only woman who can ever help me
baby, won't you help me to understand

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you're with me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I'll leave you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song
right me when I'm wrong Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you

Maybe I'm Amazed - Paul McCartney

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 02:41:43 GMT

OK...
Im getting really sick of people with there "I love you" bull shit.
Those three words are used so carelessly...
Maybe It's just me blowing it up...
But It really upsets me.
Love isn't just a word...
Im tired of it being used to carelessly...
God...
You start seeing someone...
Two weeks later you love them...
Bull Shit.
Love takes time...
ALOT OF TIME.
And effort...

::Note to self::
GIVE UP.
THIS IS WHY YOU WILL NEVER FIND LOVE.
YOU OVER ANALIZE THINGS.
YOU EXPECT TOO MUCH.
YOUR WANT EVERYTHING, BUT ALL YOUR OFFERED IS A GRAIN OF SALT.

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 02:32:01 GMT

OK...
I was really serious about my last post...
Or maybe only a few of you actually read my ramblings...
But Honestly...
If there was one thing you would change about me, ANYTHING...
What would it be and why...

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 01:46:21 GMT

If there was one thing you could change about me, what would it be? Why?

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 14:04:45 GMT

Well I'm feeling a bit better...
But I'm still not feeling up to do too much...
I Pre-Ordered Gran Turismo 4..
It's supposed to come out today...
EB better get it..
As it's the only thing keeping me sane.

If anyone has the new Sage Francis or Comeback Kid CD's...
If you burn me a copy I will love you for LIFE

Alan
XXX

Too tough for Rock Against Cancer.

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 02:25:38 GMT

Ha.
I guess alot of you people out there are all fucked up that some "Hardcore kids" are planning on going to RAC...
Thats cute...
Really.
Im proud that myself and my friends have created such a name for ourselves.
You close minded fucks.
You created a monster.
You looked down on us.
Now your upset that we gave you a reason to hate us.

You claim to hate labels..
Your SCARED.
Because when you take on a label.
You take on responsibility of full filling that label.
YOUR ALL WEAK.
Hiding behind your teenage angst.

I completely respect what RAC is about.
But its a show.
A show in Fall River.
You can't keep us out of a scene we are more than a part of.

There was no plan to go and ruin RAC.
There was no plan to go and just beat kids up.
WE PLANNED ON GOING AND DANCING.
Like we do at every show we goto.
Your just upset by the fact that we don't run from fights.

Lets take a moment and look back at some of the bands that have played our beloved P.A.L.:

BANE.
Back Of Tha Neck.
Lucas.
Alexisonfire. (When they where good)
underOATH (Before that idie shit)

Thank you for your time.
Hope you all enjoy.

And the next time your at a show, and get kicked, puched, pushed, leaned into...
GO TELL SOMEONE WHO CARES.
Its a show.
Punk/Hardcore.
Doesn't matter.
If your upset by that...
YOU DON'T BELONG THERE.

Alan
XXX

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 02:25:06 GMT

I love my friends.

I love when they bring me fucking awsome BC hats.

I can't wait til im out of the house.

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 18:47:29 GMT

Well...
Went back to the Doctor's this morning...
Turns out..
I don't have Strep Throat.
I have Mononucleosis...
Great.

I'll be spending Feb. 14th alone..
As always.

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 22:31:09 GMT

Im still wicked sick...
Just sitting home all day by myself...

I can't wait to be out of here.
Too see people...

Still wishing I had someone to hold.

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 17:56:35 GMT

I feel ten times worse...
I'm also out of tea again.

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 20:28:20 GMT

I'm out of AriZona Green Tea...
What I wouldn't do for more...

EDIT
My Mom came home with two bottles...
Im quite happy.

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 15:44:07 GMT

Strep throat.

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 02:22:55 GMT

Cupid ain't got shit on me.

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 06:07:27 GMT

Saw The Miles Between and Antilove Friday night..
Tonight went to Prov. to see With Honor and Madball..
Mr. Rian with an I, Brendan and Ashley...
Good time...

Realized that right now..
I need to just hang out and have fun..
I really realized this Friday morning..
When someone tried really hard to get some action...
THEY DIDN'T GET ANY.

Alan
XXX

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 20:42:15 GMT

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 20:02:16 GMT

Relief.

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 13:30:24 GMT

As the day begins...
Im already wish it was over.

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 03:51:49 GMT

This morning I posted this:

They say that...
All that you are, is what you have been.

What would that make me?

I spent most of the day thinking about it...
Here is what I came up with:

A Fighter
A Lover
A Lush
A Jerk
Loved
Hated
Crushed
Weak
Strong
Stupid
Smart
Out of control
Lost
Confused
Nothing.

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 15:14:33 GMT

They say that...
All that you are, is what you have been.

What would that make me?

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 02:46:09 GMT

I had a feeling...
I don't hate you.
God.
Thats the last thing Im feeling right now.

Too good to be true.
Too good to be true.

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 13:10:07 GMT

Do you ever think about me?

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 01:43:07 GMT

what is f0rever: i just.
what is f0rever: soiled.
what is f0rever: my panties.
what is f0rever: so hard.

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 03:59:02 GMT

Hoods Cd: $2
Withorwithoutme Cd: $2
Plugs: $5
Girl in the car next to you on the highway showing her ass: PRICELESS.

Spent the day in Prov. with the crew.
I skipped school every day this week.
Best choice I could have made.
Spent Wednesday with a wonderful young lady.
Mhmmm.
Hope the weekend is as great as the week has been.

Life is funny.
Just when you get down, about as low as you can.
Life has a way of kicking your ass back in gear.

I needed this week to think about things.
I have done that had had a fucking awsome time while doing it.
I still have somethings to figure out, but for the most part, Im set.

I love my life.
I love my friends.

When you feel like you have nothing left.
You realize you have everything.